Anna Kendrick opens up more about how her personal experience in an abusive relationship influenced her lead role in the new film Alice, DarlingNow in theaters in New York and Los Angeles ahead of a wider theatrical release on January 20.
Kendrick previously said People that the project, directed by Marie Nighy in her feature-length directorial debut and written by Alana Francis, which premiered at the Toronto Film Festival, “resonated” with her because she “came from personal experience with emotional abuse and psychological abuse”.
“I was in a situation where I loved and trusted this person more than I trusted myself,” Kendrick said. People from her previous relationship while refusing to name an ex-boyfriend who she says was abusive. “So when this person tells you that you have a distorted sense of reality and that you are impossible and that all the things you think happen happen, your life becomes really confusing very quickly. And I was in a situation where, in the end, I had the unique experience of discovering that everything I thought was happening was actually Happening. So I had this kind of starting point for feeling and recovering that a lot of people don’t get.”
Now, he’s talking to Los Angeles TimesKendrick, the executive who produces Lionsgate as well as stars in the film, opened up about how her past relationship affected her portrayal in the film.
In particular, it was important to Kendrick that the on-screen abuse not be physical, hoping to provide a more accurate portrayal of an abusive relationship, something she has not seen in many films, which made her wonder if what was happening to her was indeed abuse. .
She said, “That was a big part of my problem. Well, he never hits me, and I’m not really afraid he’s going to hit me. How do I distinguish between normal disagreement and abuse? Why is my body in so much fear all the time? Why do I wake up feeling like he’s in bed next to me and wondering,” Well, do I have 30 seconds before I start performing or…?”
Even the relationship made her doubt her own experience, she said: “He’s so convinced I’m a monster that I can’t see how I’m not.”
She does not necessarily believe that the abuse could be physical.
she said to Los Angeles Times.
Kendrick added that she is “connected to Alice’s obsessive mind”.
She said times She remembered writing in her journal, “I’ll try a little harder. If I can get it right, if I can make it perfect, if I can say it the perfect way, I’ll be all right.”
“It’s a completely irrational hope that if I get a little better, I’ll be safe. It’s like having a pair of pliers on your heart,” she said.
She also had a strong feeling about how a key scene in the movie plays out where her friends try to lead Alice away from her abusive boyfriend Simon (Charlie Carrick). Specifically, she calls her friend Sophie (Wonmi Musako) while not looking at Simon.
“Sophie’s actions pulled me into a tightrope of getting ready,” Kendrick told times What her character feels at that moment. “Which was the phrase I used that day, which I knew made me sound absolutely insane. I was like, ‘If I cut eye contact with her, I’m going to fall off the tightrope. This is a survival technique.'”
Like in the movie, where Alice begins to regain her sense of self and comes to terms with an abusive boyfriend while on vacation with friends, it is the friendship that helps bring her back.
“It was the first thing that got me back into my body in a year and a half; someone doing the one thing he couldn’t do, telling me, ‘You’re right, I’m sorry, you’re not crazy.’ I’m so grateful for that person and the gift.” [they] Kendrick said. “I don’t know how to describe it other than feeling like one of those grumpy CGI ghosts in ’90s movies suddenly entering your body, waking up, and saying, ‘Oh my God, I’m here. Oh! I’m hungry for the first time in forever.'”
And in the movie and as she recovered, she had to trust that she was evidence of abuse.
“I was begging Mary, could Alice be the clue?” Kendrick said. “Because not only do I want us to not make a movie that’s already been made, but personally, I have to trust that I’m the proof. Part of it was like, if you can’t trust Alice, then I can’t trust myself. So it was really important that the movie draw so heavily on it.” Just stay with Alice.”
Of her own experience, she added, “To sit in grief and think about my body was a lot harder, but it was a lot more rewarding. I have to believe we can follow Alice and trust her because that’s my job now: to trust myself.”
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